#While I don't believe in gender I do think that it serves a purpose in society

[shooting-love-arrows]

𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎'𝐬! 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐇𝐔𝐒𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐃 reacts to...cheater! reader

Request made by Anon:

Hi! I just read your post about yan 1950 house husband, it's amazing. Can you write his reaction if reader cheated on him? If you don't feel comfortable with this ask, feel free to ignore this.  Remember to take care of yourself and have a nice day.

Hello to you too, dear Anon,

First of all, I must apologize but your request suddenly disappeared from my inbox! Thankfully, I have the content of your request saved in my google docs so I pasted it above. 

Putting that aside, although this topic is sensitive to some, I am fine with writing about that. 

I appreciate your words. It's very nice of you to think about little ol' me. I wish you a nice day too (even if it's not a daytime)!

Thank you and I hope to hear from you soon!

PAIRING: 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 x [CHEATER!] reader (gender not specified/mentioned/implied), your lovers genger isn't specified/mentioned/implied either. Don't be swayed by the curses used to describe them; Tw. cheating/indifelity from the reader, cursing, description of a m*urder, delusion (delulu is the solulu), emotional manipulation, gaslightning; A/N: As a person, I do not support this kind of behavior. This is only a piece of fiction, serving for entertaining purposes only.

𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

Denial. Denial. Denial. At first 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 doesn��t believe it. No, he refuses to do so. You’re the most faithful and perfect partner known to the human kind. Right then, he's desperately holding on to that image. But unfortunately, evidence says otherwise. A simple photo, sent to him by your lover, secretly taken by some photographer is clearly showing you and (that whore) your lover, in some hotel room, in an intimate position. It is clear that day that you have an affair. 

“But what if my darling was forced to do this?”

That question sends him into a spiral of delusion, rage and sorrow. As a defence mechanism, 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 made up a story where suddenly you were a victim in this whole situation. It was definitely your lover who has forced themselves on you. Probably blackmailed or worse, drugged you to have a taste of sweet love and burning passion you share while making love with him. 

“My poor darling…” 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 wailed, clenching his chest like someone was physically ripping away his still beating heart from it. Fat tears ran down his rosy cheeks, smudging his mascara and turning him into a crying mess. “I’ll avenge you, my darling. I won’t forgive what was done to you!”

He doesn’t even blink when he sends your lover into the pits of hell. There’s no hesitation when 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 plans this hideous crime, making sure every detail is taken care of. And so, it begins small, like creating false and disgusting rumors about your lover. Day by day, he patiently destroys your lover's life. Until the day when 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 poisons them through his signature pie and then proceeds to repeatedly stab your lover until no one is able to recognize them in the first place. 

"YOU WENCH!" 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 roared at the person who happened to be your lover. "HOW FUCKING DARE YOU?!" With every word he dove the sharp, kitchen knife deeper and harder into his victim's chest. "DIE!!" 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 yelled for the final time and knife one last time, straight in this whore heart. He was left alone in the empty and messy kitchen, covered in blood, panting and trying to catch his breath. 

In the end, 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞! 𝟏𝟗𝟓𝟎’𝐬! 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 begins to gaslight you. Once again, with the patience of a saint, he began to manipulate you to believe that it was in fact your lover who was using you all this time. You were forced into this vile affair and you are a victim. 

“My innocent darling, you mustn't think about it (them) anymore. I will make everything perfect once again.”

But isn’t it weird how he started wearing clothes that are scarily similar to those worn by your lover? Sniff…sniff…and those perfumes…

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[autumnmobile12]

Finishing Touches on Malicious Compliance

Fanart for the Endeavor Agency Annual Christmas Party because I just felt like it.

It's kinda weird drawing them with the height differences in mind and showing how tall Touya is compared to the women in his family. We know Fuyumi is 5'3" and Touya clocks it in at 5'9". Rei doesn't have an official height listed, but we can see in the family shot she is a little shorter than Fuyumi. So I put her mother Grandma Himura's height about the same at 5' exactly.

Also, I don't know if there was an attempt to contain Touya's fluffy hair, but if there was, I think the ladies gave up pretty quick.

Part 2

...

With Touya wearing a woman's kimono, this seems like a good time to bring up gender identity. In the Ambush Sim AU, he does identify as male, but he is not opposed to wearing feminine clothing for comfort/practicality purposes, or in this case, pure spite. So I suppose that's a characteristic that skews more demi-masculine(?) orientation. Except I think if anybody tries to pin down exactly how Touya identifies, all they're gonna get is a shrug because he is long past the point of caring about labels. When it comes to gender identity and which public restroom to use, Touya is very much in Camp 'Just Wash Your Hands When You're Done And We'll Get Along Fine.' So while wearing a woman's kimono may have started out as malicious compliance against his father, it may also have served as some self-realization for him. Here, he's a teenager who missed out on three years of mental/physical/emotional development and figuring himself out. And he has a very encouraging and understanding grandmother.

In any case, I hope I'm using the demi-masculine term correctly. I know someone in real life who identifies as demi-feminine, and she said this was accurate, so I'm trusting her opinion.

...

You would not believe the amount of research I put into drawing their kimono accurately according to situation/season. Because kimono do have seasonal patterns/colors and are varied by formality, age, and sometimes marital status of the wearer.

So breaking down the kimono in the fanart to the best of my understanding:

All three of them are wearing homoungi, a semi-formal to formal kimono that is typically worn by guests to formal parties, such as a wedding, graduation ceremony, dinner party, etc. Since the Endeavor Agency Christmas party is a company event, I figured it would be considered semi-formal. Homoungi are generally characterized by having a pattern along the hem, sleeves, and over the left shoulder seam.

The kimono colors:

With winter colors, shades of red are popular, but otherwise, more neutral colors work just as well. Since Grandma Himura is an elderly widow, I thought dark green would be a good choice since it's not flashy and more what you'd expect a dignified older woman to wear. (That's a cultural thing, not my personal opinion!) The pattern on hers is bamboo stalks and leaves. Fuyumi's kimono is white with bare branches and camellia blossoms. Touya's is a wintry blue (actually, that's same color as the rindou flowers) and has a roughly drawn yukiwa motif. Yukiwa is a Japanese pattern made to resemble snowflakes or flowers.

Obi:

Again, neutral colors/patterns. Or at least ones that complement the kimono. Fuyumi's scarlet one matches the flowers. Touya's is black lacquer (urushi) with abstract silver embroidery. Grandma Himura's obi is white for snow with abstract flowers in silver embroidery.

Kanzashi:

Again, winter-themed hair pieces, so Touya's is a carnation arrangement hana-kanzanshi and Fuyumi has a camellia. Touya's also wearing a wisteria kanzashi, which I don't think are considered winter flowers, but I like the look of them, so they were included. If you look closely, they also have little bells. Grandma Himura's is mostly hidden because of how she's standing, but she's wearing a tama-kanzashi and a kushi.

Deepest apologies for any inaccuracies above. I am not a kimono expert and I did the best I could with what I had to work with.

...

I realized something rather sad while drawing this. In The Summer Camp Ambush Simulation, it's mentioned Grandma Himura died a few weeks after Touya's eighteenth birthday, so he can't be any older than sixteen or seventeen in this fanart. Since I don't think he made any public appearances so soon after returning home, he's more likely seventeen years old here.

Seventeen years old, it's Christmas, and he has a January birthday. So Grandma Himura dies in maybe two months after this, and I swear I did not intentionally set it up to be that tragic!

[big-mean-trans-dyke]

I've had a fantasy for a while of being a good cuntgirl for a you and your friends, and you sending me out to get gullible TERFs to rape.

Maybe you're having a party and wants something fun to do with the guests, so I go out to a meeting of TERFs, find a mouthy one I think you'll like, and do exactly as I've been told. I spend my time coming on to her, using the wording you've told me, and of course she falls for it. Faced with the words of a superior woman, even TERFs intrinsically know their place, they're just too pathetic to admit it. They need to be made to admit it. I despise being around the TERFs. I can barely contain myself as she peddles their stupid lies. I want to start screaming real facts back at her. Cuntgirls are made to be used, we should be grateful to even be allowed to serve transfem gock! But all I can do is calm myself, reminding myself exactly what is about to happen to her, as my pitiful cunt begins to grow wetter. And so I make it through this whole pathetic "meeting". I find her afterwards and invite her home. Foul ash fills my mouth as I pretend that I believe in anything she says, that I would ever want to fuck her when there's gock that I should be serving. When we get back to your place, you and your friends are waiting, grabbing her and stripping her. Groping her tits and laughing. Roughly binding her arms to her ankles as you force her legs open. Pathetic holes on display as your friend stuffs her lying mouth with her panties that she pissed in fear as she was thrown to the ground. The whole day of listening to her has been worth it, my cunt drips as I bask in the glow of the TERF being used correctly. The privilege of watching her get gangraped by superior gock is all I've ever wanted. Then, you loudly suggest, "The TERF did think she was going to fuck another cuntgirl", as your friends shove me to the ground alongside her. I don't resist, in fact I almost cum from that alone, as you tie me in the same position, shoving our lips together around your gock as your friends chuckle at the two cuntgirls in love. The next hours are the greatest in my life, as we're forced to scissor around gocks, make out with transfem's assholes and then eachother, and being baptized in your superior cum as a reward for my good work.

I need to write more on this kind of thing because it's always so, so hot. I'd usually call it being a gender traitor, but it's not, is it? You're showing some stupid, misguided TERF her real purpose, and even giving her what she actually wanted to boot. She wanted to eat out some dumb cuntgirl, and that's what she'll get. If she didn't want to be eating the cum out of her holes while her own holes got filled, that's just the cost of doing business.

[inwinterhell]

In Defense of Syrio Forel

(aka how Syrio respects Arya's agency in a way the faceless men don't)

Disclaimer: I know Syrio=Jaqen believers are few and far between, especially on here, but writing this gives me an excuse to talk about Syrio and Ayra so here have this anyway.

Syrio Forel has a distinct teaching/coaching style based on name-play and "true sight," both of which are skills Arya later builds upon in the House of Black and White. However, while the skills she learns are similar, the way Syrio interacts with Arya seeks to empower her while the faceless men seek to tear her down. Some of the main contrasts I see are:

Arya's gender identity

The faceless men make Arya's gender identity into a barrier as soon as they start genuinely training her:

 "It may be that the Many-Faced God has led you here to be His instrument, but when I look at you I see a child . . . and worse, a girl child. Many have served Him of Many Faces through the centuries, but only a few of His servants have been women. Women bring life into the world. We bring the gift of death. No one can do both (AFFC Arya II).

I question the validity of this concern, especially considering the Waif is right there, but regardless, they're giving her an extra hurdle to overcome. Her gender identity is one of many reasons they use to make her insecure about her place there and show how she isn't good enough.

Despite this, the Kindly Man never actually calls her a girl when she's pretending to be "no one." He calls her a girl when she is under an alias (Cat/Beth/The Ugly Little Girl), but otherwise, he uses the genderless "child:" *not 100% on this but a search of ice and fire backs me up lol*

"Do they frighten you, child?" asked the kindly man" (ADWD The Ugly Little Girl).

"Go to bed now, child," the kindly man said" (AFFC Cat of the Canals).

"Child," he said, "come sit with me. I have a tale to tell you" (AFFC Arya II).

He also specifically says her gender will not be hers if she joins them:

"He will take your hands, your feet, your arms and legs, your private parts (AFFC Arya II).

In contrast, Syrio's "Boy, girl...You are a sword" is nonchalant. I think it does serve several purposes, namely to tell her she won't get any special treatment and to make her pay attention to how others see her, but importantly, it also lets her know that she has nothing extra to prove. He was hired to train her as a sword, and he's going to train her like he would anyone else.

After this initial lesson, he also never calls her "boy" again. He sometimes uses "child" but for the most part calls her "girl:"

"So slow? Be quicker, girl. Your enemies will give you more than scratches (AGOT Arya III) 

"Just so. And now you are a dead girl" (AGOT Arya IV).

"Watching is not seeing, dead girl" (AGOT Arya IV).

Arya says she is a girl. Syrio respects that and calls her a girl.

2. Needle

When the Waif sees Arya training with Needle, that is the signal for Arya to get rid of her belongings:

One night the waif happened to be passing and saw Arya at her swordplay. The girl did not say a word, but the next day, the kindly man walked Arya back to her cell. "You need to rid yourself of all this," he said of her treasures.

Arya felt stricken. "They're mine" (AFFC Arya II)

The faceless men know what is important to Arya and want to strip her of it so she rids herself of her identity.

Syrio lets Arya use the name of her sword to help understand her training:

 You are not holding a battle-axe, you are holding a—"

"—needle," Arya finished for him, fiercely.

"Just so" (AGOT Arya II).

"Syrio Forel allowed himself a smile. "I am thinking that when we are reaching this Winterfell of yours, it will be time to put this needle in your hand" (AGOT Arya IV).

3. Her name!

The one and only time that Syrio ever name-drops "Arya" is when he is convincing her to run for her life:

"Arya child," he called out, never looking, never taking his eyes off the Lannisters, "we are done with dancing for the day. Best you are going now. Run to your father" (AGOT Arya IV).

Nine-year old Arya is standing there, with a stick sword in her hand, ready to fight a bunch of grown men with Syrio. He knows that she loves him--that she is loyal to him--and if he wanted to use that he could have run with her right then and there. But he doesn't. Instead he reminds her of her name and her father. His final words to her are telling her to remember who she is.

When Arya thinks of Syrio in the books following AGOT, she thinks of him as her friend, and she is right. Syrio cared about Arya, not about "no one." He's one of her memories in the House of Black and White, preventing her from letting go of Arya Stark, and that's where he belongs.

[idiotsonlyevent]

p4re.............. ahhhhhh i want to see it so bad.......

i need to not be too optimistic bc i think it will be Bad, but not Bad in the way i want it to be.... based on what they did with p3re, i think they are likely to water down/simplify the characters and align the visual and combat elements of the game to be more similar to p5, while any structural issues and writing inconsistencies will remain completely unadressed 🤧

things i think they need to fix but won't:

- removing/reworking additional scenes from p4g (fatphobia and yosuke's ooc Additional Misogyny Moments): these are bad. like there's nothing to even say here, all of them except for the band one sucked and they should be deleted forever or be changed to not suck

- rework naoto's social link: as discussed a million times, if they want to maintain that naoto is a cis woman after All Of That, the social link should shift to more directly show and adress misogyny and infantilization in the workplace, and all forcefemming (especially as part of the romance initiation) needs to be removed

- maybeeeee rework yukiko and rise's resolutions?: i've thought about the conclusions of these links a lot and while i'm definitely not as vehemently against them as a lot of other people are... eugh idk. i could go either way on this

- engage more with adachi's nihilism

- timeskip designs: most of them are fine-to-great but whatever they did to naoto and kanji needs to be retconned to oblivion bc jesus fucking CHRIST they would not dress like that. even in the year of our lord 2012

things i think they might change but shouldn't:

- removing or toning down homophobia, transphobia, and misogyny present in the base game: this is a pretty controversial one, but i think these elements serve two critical purposes: 1. they date the game by showing (god icb im about to use this phrase 💀) period-typical homo- and trans-phobia and 2. if the game is trying to explore and discuss gender and sexuality, i do think it HAS to at least adress that these are experiences that happen(ed in 2012) bc We Live In A Society. its different that the random trans npc in p3 who just exists to be a punchline - the game Is trying to adress these things, even if it's not always doing so particularly well, so i hope they stay, though i think in some cases it makes sense to adjust how they are presented/handled

- removing any of yosuke's iconic gayass lines: if i don't see "bromantically entangled," "meat lover's combo,"' "you look like you're good with your hands," "yosuke looks happy for some reason," etc. you WILL find me on the news

- changing kanji's and rise's dungeons: as uncomfortable as their dungeon experiences are, i think that discomfort is intentional and important

- "new" (p5-esque) dungeon and battle mechanics: i get that p4's dungeons and combat aren't The Greatest Thing In The World so i'm open to changes and improvements but i DO like them, and if i end up having to play 100 hours of a Less Good p5 clone.... i won't 🫶

things i want Personally for Personal Reasons:

- alek le as yosuke: if he's already taken over for yuri lowenthal in p3re, why not here too? seriously tho, he clearly puts a lot of thought and care into connecting with who he's voicing, and you REALLY can't half-ass yosuke w how prominent he is And w the amount of development he gets. i think if anyone could pull off that range, it's aleks. plus we could get "running around inaba with lesbians 2" sooooo let's get on this!

- yosuke romance route: 🙂‍↕️ self-explanatory. based on what the did with ryoji in p3re, i think (maybe foolishly) that they Will keep all of his flirting lines and mighttttt even go so far as to add more, BUT i'm not sure i believe they have the guts to add back the full romance route 🤧

- sexy menu BUT one that maintains the more obviously "dated"/retro design elements

- overall visuals that are less steeped in p5's/p3re's style: god especially w the shade of yellow they choose.... the whole screen could look like piss 💀 let's be careful....

- i like the stupid overworld models.... i hope they stay a little ugly 🙂‍↕️ let's keep everyone humble!

- remixes/ost reworks that aren't ass: iirc shihoko hirata confirmed recently that she was recording something, and w the domain registration, it's likely it was for p4re so vocals are safe and will be 🔥 but i need any instrumental reworks they do to be solid too bc p3re's were SO inconsistent in terms of quality and things like instrumentation 🤧 if they fuck up heaven you WILL find me on the news

im thats it for now ig if there's more i'll add it at some point . if you read this i'm sorry. peace and love 🫶

[callahanisms]

jealousy jealousy

a request: "hey! I wanted to make a request for a Tashi Duncan fanfic <3 a headcanon, about Tashi and reader being friends and playing tennis together, but reader is chubby and insecure a about her body, she feels a little jealous of Tashi and the other girls that play tennis and feels guilty about it. Tashi is secretly in love with her, at first reader can't really accept because she can't believe someone would be in love with her. Can you do female reader?"

this is going to be one of those rare occasions where i will be more specific about a reader's appearance and gender. something i also think is important is that i tend to imagine my reader as not white. so this does bleed into these head canons. if that's too serious for you, you're better off not following me.

pairing: tashi duncan x chubby! fem! reader

for vibes: "jealousy jealousy" by olivia rodrigo

context: stanford 2007

word count: 1.8k words

Love cannot exist without Envy.

When you love someone, to some extent you envy that person. There's something they have that you envy. That is what you grew up believing and that is the worldview of love that you were left with. On top of your mother telling you that girls like you do not receive the flowers, guitars, and romantic rescues that all the rom-com heroines you watched had.

Your favorite romantic comedies were My Big Fat Greek Wedding, 10 Things I Hate About You, and Love Actually–the third being more of a guilty pleasure. The only movie that came close to representing a girl like you, with your body type, was My Big Fat Greek Wedding. That was the right kind of rom-com, the one where the woman didn't need to change herself. She just developed confidence and scored the guy of her dreams.

Unfortunately, real life was not as kind as the movies.

"You can't quit tennis!"

"What makes you say that?" You play with your food, poking the fettuccine alfredo with chicken recipe you cooked up for the both of you. You were craving something creamy this time of night. And Tashi was too.

"You just can't. You're amazing. Why would you quit? With talent like yours, it seems like such a waste to just quit." Tashi had already finished her plate.

"It was fun while it lasted. But I don't see myself doing it."

"Bullshit (Y/N)." You could never look at her when you lied.

Tashi recalls the first time she saw you play. It was the day after her own match. And you were pure fire. Your strokes were quick, most of your serves unreturnable. She felt bad for your opponent because you never gave her a chance. Instead, you decimated her. In short, you were a phenomenon. Someone like herself.

You two played the next day. Tashi won, but she never felt such a thrill, such a surge of adrenaline. You were the only opponent she's played so far to have her respect and friendship. You were great. And she wished the world could see what she saw.

Your passion for tennis rivaled Tashi's. It was your purpose in life. It was the perfect sport for you to destress yourself to, hitting balls and rallying yourself against the walls in the public park. You wanted to achieve that envious Grand Slam career title. You wanted to continue in tennis. You didn't want to quit.

"Is it those assholes again?"

You look up at Tashi. You both dealt with your share of racism. But you had an extra pile of shit thrown on top of you. People say all the time that chubby people can't play tennis. And it didn't help that among the players of your generation, you were the only one with a body size bigger than a 14. Being both non-white and chubby only made the vitriol worse and the interpersonal competition harsher.

"Come on. You can't listen to them." Tashi sets down the pasta bowl. You painted it for her that one time you guys decided to try pottery painting. She takes a sip of water from the mug you gifted her. And the cherry on top was that she was wearing one of your shirts. You left it at her house when you slept over.

"That's easy for you to say." You set your plate down.

A frown forms on her face. You don't like it when Tashi frowns. "(Y/N)..."

"It's all they talk about." Your eyes rake over her figure. Thin arms. A limber, slender body. Athletic with the right muscle balance so she didn't seem like too much of an athlete. She was model material, Tashi Duncan. And that's why all the offers came rolling in for her. All the brand deals, all the money. And you were instead left with scraps, still wrapping duct tape around the handle of your dad's Wilson racket. Relying on the graciousness of Tashi Duncan when you were in a tough spot. She bought you new shoes in time for the U.S. Open this year because your old ones had holes and were worn down. You hated relying on her. You hated that she always insisted you didn't need to pay her back. Your company was enough.

Your love was enough.

"What's the point in playing tennis if no one is going to talk about me playing tennis!" You raise your voice out of frustration. You were so angry that you could throw the plate at the wall and break it. "All everyone wants to talk about is how fat I am and that fat girls don't belong in tennis! It's not going anywhere! No one but you sees my potential. And my family and I have been losing money! It's too costly. Stanford didn't even take me for tennis." You were accepted for your brains. Not for your true passion. It wasn't worth investing in tennis when you were getting nothing in return. Nothing but racist, fatphobic vitriol that continued to wear you down every day.

"And that's why you should continue to play. You need to prove them wrong!" Tashi keeps her voice steady. "You prove them wrong, then they can't say shit."

You wanted to believe her. But you knew the truth. You weren't Tashi Duncan. You could never be Tashi Duncan. Only girls like Tashi Duncan and Irina Petrovska got the brand deals, got the fame, got the money.

Only girls like them got to continue their passion and turn it into a career.

"Proving them wrong won't do them anything. At this point I'm just...a circus pig." Your voice drops, but Tashi can hear what you said.

"You're not a circus pig."

"That's easy for you to say! You're...You're fucking perfect! You're the face of tennis! You're who people think of when someone brings up the term tennis player. Not me! You. I'm not meant to be on the court."

"Don't say that. Don't. Say. That." Desperation bleeds into Tashi's voice as she looks at you. "Do you remember what we agreed on during that after party? After our match?"

Your lack of a response tells her that you do. "We're going up there. Together. Next year. Doubles. Me and you. We're going to take over the world." Her fingers tap against the table. "You can't quit! You promised you would play with me! You promised you would. And we always keep our promises."

"Well maybe I'm fed up. Maybe I'm just done with it all." You sip your water. "Proving them wrong only seems to enhance the insults I get! It only makes things worse for me! And it only hurts you!"

"Why would it hurt me?" Tashi is in disbelief.

"Because I'm someone you shouldn't associate with. I shouldn't be playing with you! I don't deserve to! I'm a terrible friend!" Your voice cracks. "I am so jealous of you Tashi. All the time. There's always this sick twisting in my stomach. And you deserve everything that you've gotten but I can't help but feel that some of it should go to me! But it doesn't because I'm the fat one! And no one wants to see a fat girl in an Adidas ad. And it's not fair to you because you didn't do anything! And I don't deserve to be friends with you or even play against your because I'm a terrible person!"

She doesn't respond. She's too busy looking at you, watching the way your face contorts with emotion, the way your tears fall from your eyes. It was like you were unloading everything.

Tashi hated seeing you cry.

"You can't quit tennis."

You look at her with shock. Is that all she could say after everything you dumped on her?

You expected her to fume, to lash out. Or maybe to tell you to go kill yourself. She's done her fair share of that to people. And yet, all she can tell you is that you can't quit tennis.

"You still somehow managed to make this about tennis."

Tashi leans forward, her hand taking yours. She enjoys the feeling of your soft skin. You always took great care of your skin, moisturizing constantly. If she needed some cream to moisturize her dried out hands, she could always ask you. You had so much in your purse. She could smell that lavender cream you used. Some said it was the scent only old people picked. But she found herself craving that lavender smell late at night in her bed.

"I understand...everything...you're saying. Remember that time we were talking? About how we both envy white girls and their opportunities and their easy life and their ability to get away with everything on the court." She remembers the thinly veiled racist remarks fired at the both of you when you were playing against white opponents. The rage she felt but couldn't exercise because letting her emotions run free would only make her the angry Black woman and they would instead penalize her.

"Tashi-"

"I don't hold it against you. That's...the way the game is right now." The both of you were playing a white man's sport. Unfortunately, this was the reality.

"It's...stupid. And ridiculous. You shouldn't even be friends with me!"

"(Y/N), I love you."

Your breath hitches in your throat. You couldn't believe what you were hearing. Tashi Duncan...loves you? Even after everything you confessed? You wanted to say so many things, wanted to tell her that she was wrong to love you. She couldn't love you and shouldn't love you.

"Why?" is all you managed to muster out.

Her eyes soften. "I..." There were so many reasons why. Your laugh. Your determination. The way you ran your fingers through her hair when she laid her head on your lap. How soft you were. Your hugs. Your lips. Those unreturnable serves of yours. The way your skirts would hike up those thick thighs of yours. That serving tick of yours where you would tap the ball against the edge of your racket three times.

Her heart sinks when you pull your hand out of hers and stand up from your seat. You needed to take a walk. You needed to think for a minute.

"(Y/N)..." Tashi stands up to follow after you. She grabs your wrist and you turn around to look at her.

"Tashi...I don't...I don't deserve you-"

She leans forward, pressing her lips against yours harshly. You're shocked by the sudden feeling, taking a step backwards into the wall. Tashi cups your face with both of her hands, keeping you there. She pulls away, watching your face to see if you would react in any way. "(Y/N)..."

You close the gap between you two once more and place your hands on her waist, slowly guiding her to the bed as she gets lost in the smell of lavender.

[violetasteracademic]

Hello!! I absolutely adore your posts and how well you've researched and thought everything out. I am curious what you think about Mor being Azriel's mate. I go back and forth on the question - it's a lot to tackle with Mor's sexuality and how mates are chosen etc. I feel like there's some language that could indicate they're mates, but I know it's not a popular theory in the Elriel bubble and ACOTAR fandom as a whole. It would also solve the question of "what would Azriel do if him and Elain aren't mates, but he found his mate later on?" Just curious if you have any thoughts on the matter. :)

Hello my love! First of all, I want to genuinely thank you for your kind words. I have quite a few days in this fandom where I wonder if I fit in here, but my deep enjoyment for writing theory posts and fanfics keeps me going! You caught me on a day I was sort of in my feels about it, so it was really lovely to see a kind word attached to the ask!

I am 100% a Morrigan and Azriel are Cauldron breeding mates just like L/ucien and Elain truther, and I have soooo much to get into about it and am bringing my usual receipts. I'm pretty convinced that even if she ultimately opts not to go that direction, she for sure was thinking heavily about it.

This post is EXCEPTIONALLY long (as usual) because I think Morrigan is a character that receives unjust hate in every microcosm of the fandom and some things need to be noted, and I hope you all will give it a chance even if you dislike Mor or hate this theory!

It is important to remember that every character is in fact *not* a real person, but the author. And sometimes character flaws are not intentionally curated for arcs and development, but they are author flaws. I believe this is partly the case with Morrigan. I don't spend a lot of time critiquing SJM. This is not because she is above reproach, it's simply because there are plenty of people out there doing it and there are valid spaces for that. That being said, I cannot address the Morrigan situation without addressing the very real issue of SJM and her blind spots when it comes to representation. This is something that SJM and Bloomsbury have addressed and made necessary steps to improve:

Time article published January 30th 2024, found here.

SJM has fallen into a lot of bad tropes and stereotypes when it comes to her BIPOC and LGBTQ representation, to the point where she has hired sensitivity readers to ensure she does not continue to so do. This is a great thing, and personally I think sensitivity readers should be the bare minimum and the absolute norm and not solely employed in response to criticism. Alas, it is a new addition and her past mistakes live on.

Sexuality is a spectrum, and while some people might identify with the way SJM has represented it, she had a pattern that she did not break until recently: Tokenizing sexual representation as bi characters interested in having sex with all genders and orientations without experiencing emotional attraction outside of their preferred gender.

*TOG spoiler* The Aedion bi reveal in the second to last book served literally no purpose other than- look! More representation! He had no romantic or emotionally intimate experiences with men throughout the series, but very suddenly and randomly reveals he has sex with men. It is mentioned once, then never again, because he is pursuing a heterosexual relationship. That is a valid experience with sexuality but in the context of ToG it was a brow-raising and unearned attempt to throw in an extra queer character because she was being criticized. That's a hey you tried but maybe do better next time.

But then it happened again with Helion- freely having sex and experiencing physical attraction with both men and women but only suggestions of having fallen in love with a woman, and will likely only persue a hetero relationship.

Then it happened again with Morrigan (with a slightly flipped script), who only experiences love and romance with women but freely has sex with men. Now we see a *pattern* and at this point its like, mmkay, skill issue. Even if it does feel authentic and representative to *some* readers, it is also a reflection of the authors limitations exploring emotional intimacy with her bi characters and just treating them as wanting/willing to have sex with anyone while only like liking just boys or just girls.

I bring all of this up because I am going to bring in my usual methods of comparisons, themes, development, ect- but I am typically talking about things SJM did exceptionally well. When it comes to Morrigan, I don't necessarily think she has done things all that well. But the threads are still there, and my love for Morrigan and experience with her themes live beyond an irritating skill issue on the authors part. Lets get into it.

I've made quite a few posts about the usage of the mating bond as a plot device and the development of theme. The best one to catch up on if you'd like is probably this one here.

The biggest indicators to me that Morrigan is Azriel's corrupted Cauldron (aka breeding) mate are twofold: parallel behavior between Mor and Lucien as well as the development of Morrigan's theme of her value being tied to her breeding in ACOWAR alongside the introduction of the mating bond being nothing less than a tool for powerful breeding, also for the first time in ACOWAR.

With the confirmation that the Asteri corrupted the Cauldron, along with the conversation regarding the Asteri forcing mated pairs outside of sexual orientations and not caring (*HOSAB), SJM doubled down on all of this. The Asteri need powerful offspring. They will force queer women to mate with men to do it.

Spoiler alert: Celestina does *not* prefer males. And the Asteri do not care.

CC also, in my opinion, cemented the two-bond theory. The Mother Bond (also known as Urd or Wyrd) the true soul-mated pairs, and Breeding Bond- created at the behest of the Asteri.

With breeding bonds, you can experience a sense of ownership and possessiveness over someone you are not even remotely romantically interested in:

Both Mor and L/ucien go stiff during representations of their *alleged mates interacting romantically with someone else even when there is no attraction or emotional intimacy. For L/ucien, he doesn't even know Elain. He doesn't automatically assume they will even be together, because he wants to know more about her personality and decide if they are a good fit. Honestly? Super healthy and valid.

Morrigan is having her moment during ACOFAS. She is very much out as queer (again, with some confusion of whether or not she is bi due to a skill issue on the author's end, but 100% confirmed to not be romantically interested in men) so why is she going tense at the sight of Azriel acting like a BDE husband to Elain? The unjustified and unsympathetic take (imo) is that she is being weird and jealous and wants Azriel's attention even though she doesn't want him. This makes no sense. She has actually only ever acted positively towards Elain, and before this dinner mused on Azriel giving Elain truth-teller without a shred of jealousy. But then to see them together, even though she does not want Azriel and only wishes for his happiness, she tenses, then recovers quickly. To me, both of these moments indicate a jerk reaction to the breeding bond at work.

There is also this idea of feel a pull to explore their *alleged mate just once:

L/ucien actually has already seen Elain, and although he had some immediate instinctive reactions, it didn't leave him immediately feeling like this was the woman he was supposed to be with. Alternatively, Morrigan deeply loves Azriel, just not in that way. She loves him so much that sometimes she wonders if she should try, just once, just to know for sure, even though she is not capable of falling in love with men. Both of these scenes are from ACOWAR, and tie into the way mating bonds are finally described, and how most mates feel like they should try:

Even though neither Mor or L/ucien experience romantic feelings for their mates, they feel a pull to try. They think about giving things a chance just to be sure. This is not something any of our other mates have experienced.

This passage also leads me to another important note- which is the severity of mating bond rejections. Again, all of this is in ACOWAR and thematically connects. Both Elain and Mor have very good reason to be afraid of a mating bond rejection. It can drive a male mad and make them go violently insane. We can criticize both women all day long about how they should just reject their mates and have the conversation so everyone can move on, but when this is what is on the table for them? A man possibly killing because of the power of the mating bond? That is no joke.

The only reason Morrigan slept with Helion is because she was sick and terrified over Azriel handing Eris his ass because he called her a slut. Mor has already seen Azriel act in an uncontrolled and violent manner that could not easily be stopped on her behalf. If she is afraid of what a mating bond rejection will do to Azriel, the depth and complexity of her decision, and her behavior to try to distance and avoid the conversation is a lot more sympathetic. I also believe that Morrigan, Azriel, and Elain will be doing some work together in Vallahan, and the issue of the Cauldron being wrong for both Azriel and Elain will resolve during that storyline. You can read more about that here.

And then of course, there is this:

Rhys only brings up Mor when Azriel brings up the Cauldron. That feels extremely intentional to me. I think Rhys either knows or assumes that Azriel and Mor have a mating bond. I think both Az and Mor know (I also think Azriel absolutely knows Mor is queer, and their weirdness and his constant confusion and staring at her has more to do with that than being in love with her, because he doesn't understand why she is sleeping with men at all.) Crack theory, but I think Eris knows. What happened between Mor and Eris isn't a secret, it was all revealed in ACOFAS. But I think somehow, for some reason, Eris is also aware of the mating bond between Az and Mor, which is why Morrigan gets so pissed when Eris needles her about not telling the whole truth. She isn't trying to hide what Eris did to make herself look better (he didn't do much, really, still left her to die even though he did her a solid by not accepting her as his wife) but he also knew that a Blood Duel could be called by Az over her.

Here's the thing: ACOWAR states that some courts allow men to kill each other over their mate choosing or having other partners. The bonus chapter clarifies that violence as the Blood Duel. I do not believe the Blood Duel can be called over anyone over any situation- it is specific to mates. I could be wrong, but it seems strange that Rhys would talk about outlawed violent practices that is not allowed in his court but is in others, and then we would see the Blood Duel brought up as the Autumn Court tradition, and not see them as one in the same:

Ultimately, all of these characters are grappling with their choices being affected by deeply held cultural beliefs about the mating bond.

If Azriel and Mor are breeding mates, she is struggling with genuine love for him but being unable to love him romantically. She thematically is dealing with hiding her sexuality because there is no greater dishonor to the culture of her family than a woman not being used for sale and breeding. If Azriel and Mor are mates, so much of her behavior and her themes and experiences make so much more sense. Rhysand's response to Azriel thinking the Cauldron was wrong when he has a mate in the Inner Circle whom he already loves makes more sense. Azriel knowing Mor is queer and not understanding why she sleeps with men but also not pushing her to have a conversation about their bond makes more sense.

Everything makes more sense if Az and Mor are mates.

If they are not, well, skill issue, I guess.

Either way, I truly hope Mor gets her HEA and SJM's employed sensitivity writers will help her do it justice.

How did we do? Did anyone stick with me on this one? Have I won you over? I can't wait to see what happens, however it pans out! And I'm grateful for the addition of sensitivity readers to Sarah's work. I hope she does her best to represent as well as she can!

[princess-of-the-corner]

No Fate AU:

So basically the Oracle has a bunch of Links that she could grab to make the prophecy work, and for whatever reason Linkle is the #1 best choice for actually making that plan work.

(What a coincidence that the best choice for a backup is the one with a minor variation on the name, so that we don't have to specify whether we are talking about Backup!Link or Regular!Link. Sure is convenient.)

Wait, would Linkle be a branch off of Link, like what Shiek and Tetra are for Zelda? Does Link have a couple Linkle's giving him advice?

Okay so THOUGHTS:

I have three reasons for wanting to yoink Linkle for this

1.) Yeah the bit where it's easier to refer to Linkle instead of the more confusing ! epithet

2.) I'm doing my best to keep OCs minimal and make most characters reincarnations of named characters. I have to have a few unless we gender or race swap some canon characters(ie: there's never been a male Gerudo other than Ganondorf so he's gotta be an OC. And any Zonai other than Rauru and Mineru are OCs). So Linkle is one of two and a half characters named after Link and the one more likely to fit the bill.

3.) Story-wise, Linkle fits the bill in being both a touch delusional(I say with all the love in my heart) to whole-heartedly believe the Oracle when she tells her she's the Hero, and also actually really good with weapons. Like she's not /as/ good as the real Link, but she can keep up with the major players in the series.

As for if Linkle is a branch off.....

I don't think she should be. Both Tetra and Sheik were identities of Zelda that have become somewhat separates in part due to how they were semi-removed from her identity. But "Linkle" was never an real identity and persona that Link put on.

Tetra and Sheik also serve a purpose in 'Zelda can only reincarnate into the royal bloodline, so this gives more chances if some shit goes sideways', while Link can reincarnate into any Hylian family.

[sirensoul-min]

Rose's fans acting as if she greater than bts because of APT is so funny though like that's crazy. Rose can't even be compared to jimin in terms of talent. they need to be humbled rn

(okay apologies this will be a long, winded response i have no time to edit and proofread, lol).

are people seriously doing that??💀 listen i have no huge issue with rosé simply because i'm not a fan of hers and her group (never was), but not for lack of trying. i gave myself a chance to like them before as i was curious because many of my IRLs were fans of theirs (i was originally from a country that favours girlgroups more than boygroups).

that being said, i believe rosé has her talents. i know comparing her to my bias who happens to be a man would be perceived by some as misogynistic, but i'm going to hold their hands when i say that this has nothing to do with their genders. i'm biased yes but come on, if rosé can perform and sing the way jimin did and could, then by all means i can be her fan, but no, she can't. and that's okay.

however, claiming that she's as big as bts and or jimin just because of the success of apt is unhinged. yes it was a catchy song, has bruno mars in it (a huge western artist who practically has all his songs a hit), and has an all-out promo. it had little chance of performing poorly.

meanwhile, bts was able to start and rise above with their own korean songs with no big western collabs. bts started a revolution, a cultural reset, they made many people (an understatement) to love kpop again.

and don't even get me started on jimin. he was able to put out beautiful music and performances all on his own and even while serving in the military and even with underwhelming promotions from his incompetent label. how can we even compare them? it's unfair (and frankly insulting) to compare jimin's success because of rosé and bruno's song because again, my man relies on no one but himself and his team---no big western collab, no autoplay, and certainly no massive playlisting and radio. jimin is also a versatile artist and has a wide range. he was and still is in the barracks while Who and Muse were released. jimin is a 'one-man army' (i read this term somewhere and i loved it) and was able to release hits without his personal presence. i don't even need to say all this because come on, these are just facts and they can speak for themselves.

her fans need to chill because they'll only get more hate. i get they're happy for her but do be boastful when the success of that song translates to her actual solo songs, which as far as i know isn't happening? like isn't that such a waste and sad to think that the "gp" isn't interested with her solo songs but only with apt? even her stans seem to not give a damn about her solo songs because those streams are just...low. if this is how it's going to be then i guess she really do need to stick with bangpd's fame formula and do purely western collabs from now on. solo songs better stay in the vault forever. (also isn't it ironic how bangpd and scooter went through all that for jk's album only for apt to be objectively more popular than seven?)

at the end of the day, i can't and won't be controlling what music other people enjoy. it's a matter of personal preference, after all. i can surely judge people for it, though.

a song can be catchy and all, but i can also view it as practically disposable. apt is like that for me because it's not something that i would listen to over and over again (i only ever hear it because of my IRLs). it's the same way that i treat my least fave songs from bts and jimin---i repeat some of their songs more often than the others.

there's no problem with being proud for your fave, but don't go lie to yourselves and everyone else. not everyone is as purposely naïve here as some of them.

[a-frog-in-a-bog]

Hey don't start falling into exclus bullshit.

i'm not "falling into" anything, i've held the belief for years now that while asexuality and aromanticism are real and valid identities, they're not inherently queer (they're not inherently straight either). there's overlap between the ace and queer communities, but it's a venn diagram, not a circle. a cishet ace or aro is still cishet. if you can be gay and ace, you can be straight and ace. this doesn't mean that i hate aces/aros or that i think they shouldn't be allowed in lgbt spaces. yes, i'm aware that 2% of aces face medical discrimination bc of their asexuality, yes, i'm aware that many aces/aros are bullied. both those things suck and i'm sorry they go through them but it's not systemic oppression. while the ace and aro fight is for visibility and awareness (which is important!), the lgbt fight is for legal protection and acceptance, among other things.

i'm a firm believer in prioritizing community over individuality, which is why i think microlabels are unnecessary and redundant. the lgbt community came together over things we have in common with each other-- being discriminated against and oppressed for what gender we love and our gender presentation. it was for survival. the lgbt community is first and foremost a civil rights coalition. not having sex until you know someone or only getting crushes on people after you've formed a connection with them has nothing to do with what gender you love or your gender presentation, and has zero effect on day-to-day life. nobody's getting kicked out of their home or fired for not having casual sex. there are no bills being proposed to ban demiromantics from public bathrooms. what purpose do microlabels serve other than creating another demographic to sell pride merch to? other than promoting the western (and especially american) belief that individualism is more important than community? other than perpetuating the societal importance placed on sex and romance? how is it better or easier or healthier to scrutinize the ins and outs of every aspect of your attraction to find the perfect matching label instead of just recognizing that you need to warm up to someone first, and that's just as normal and common as not needing to know someone at all?

sorry for the long response, but i wanted to make sure i covered everything so you know exactly where i stand👍🏻

[bisexualsdeservebetter]

Good faith question:

I looked into the bi/pan argument and I see how they’re the same and the problems with “everything’s fluid, there are no lines.”

That being said, I’m wondering why you don’t like neopronouns? Since pronouns are about what ppl are comfortable being called I thought they were fine. Ex: many binary ppl use “they.”

I never heard anyone use neopronouns except for when I went to a place with a lot of very depressed queer teenagers, and many of them used neopronouns. I’m pretty sure they weren’t doing it for the heck of it since they were all really struggling, so I’m wondering:

1. What do you find problematic about neopronouns

and

2. Do you think they’re okay if they aren’t used just for the heck of it?

My issue with neopronouns is that pronouns are not just words you are comfortable with, they're specifically to describe your gender. I'm he/him because I am a trans man, not because I like he/him pronouns or for any other reason aside from it's the proper way to describe me as a man.

I think neopronouns generally contribute to making trans people look like a massive joke in the same way that xenogenders and all other MOGAI nonsense does. They are not necessary, they serve absolutely no practical purpose.

The only time I don't really care about neopronouns being used is like, in your own online circles. But they're not something I think will ever be sensible to use in real life, or outside of your own social circles. To be perfectly frank, if you are in such a precarious mental place that somebody refusing to call you "it" or"ey" or whatever other "pronoun" you've chosen is going to cause you severe distress or cause you to harm yourself in some way, you NEED therapy URGENTLY. Neos are just another extension of MOGAI hyperindividuality. Other MOGAI labels make people feel comfortable but I'm still against those too, for similar reasons to what I've listed here.

I will add I know there are some neopronouns that have existed for a while, such as ze/hir (I think), but I don't really subscribe to those either. This is a classic case of you can call yourself whatever you want, but that doesn't mean other people have to go along with it if it's absolutely ridiculous. And if your mental health is resting on your nonsense MOGAI identity, then you are in desperate need of help. I fully believe trans & other dysphoric people deserve to have pronouns and names and genders respected, but neos and xeno genders aren't trans. It's mostly kids who feel the need to be special and differentiate themselves.

To be clear, I don't condone bullying random kids for using neos or xenogenders or whatever because I do absolutely understand that a lot of those kids are struggling in some way, but that doesn't mean that I have to support a bunch of nonsense that's not doing anything good for the LGBT community.

[mun-of-orchid-and-friends]

I came up with an alien species that has been on my mind for a while...

(more information below the cut if your interested)

I was talking on Discord with one of my friends about the alien species and she helped me build more on them... Because I originally created them to tell the story of the last two (or just of two of them because a few are spread across the cosmos...)

She even built a variant of her own to be the ones to destroy their sister planet...

This is Abdo (Blue and yellow) and Cato (Red and Purple)...

Abdo stands 6 blocks tall and Cato stands 4 blocks tall.

They have 4 arms and two legs. A somewhat small tail and two sets of ears. They have fur, but it is more predominantly on their head and tail tip.

Think of their species society it's like a fandom on the internet: most are peaceful but they are highly advanced with laws that would severely punished those who are negative (ie: banishment or execution depending on the severity) like trolls or o-phile etc... Gender was no problem and most where peaceful...

Abdo had found out that his home planet was going to be destroyed and begged for a few to follow him to safety, even to evacuate the planet... But the high council would not listen. He then took a scientist hostage and escaped the planet's destruction. Only after to find out that Cato was also a male...

Luckily Cato knew a way around this... They would have to merge themselves with a different species DNA to keep the species DNA from disappearing completely... And one of them would have to change gender.

After playing a best 2 out of 3 game session, Abdo won and Cato accepted his fate of changing gender.

As soon as they reach the closest planet (what ever you call the Minecraft planet), they find two deceased locals to infuse with...

Abdo fuses himself with a unknown male Pillager. Shrinking down to 3 blocks tall but still has his perky upbeat attitude from before.

Cato fused with an unknown female Villager. Now identifying as a female, Cato is still a nervous bundle of fur who overthinks everything.

(I have more images in my book but I didn't take a snapshot of them yet...)

This is an open species so if you want to create your own OC from the original species or the Villager/Illager fusion I would love to see it... Just please credit me when you use the base or the species...

Abdo and Cato are my OCs but you can use their base to make your own... I don't care if they have the same color pattern (like I can actually control whoever uses my base or draws the species in their own style 🤣 besides I don't feel like charging people to use it. It just don't sit right with me, that's why it's an open species and free to use~)

For now I'm calling them raptoids because I can't remember the species name me and my friend had come up with for them (I'm sure they wrote it down somewhere so I'll get the name from them later and update this post with it).

They can be any gender, have any sort of pattern on in their fur, you can give them the scars, you can make them fluffy, muscly, skinny, fat etc... That's all up to you~

They must have 4 arms, 2 legs, 2 pairs of ears, a somewhat small tail, and nose is closer to the eyes with a long snout. They have claws that do not retract in their base form. (Fused form develops retractable claws unless original species has claws out constantly)

Believe it or not the tails actually do serve a very personal purpose: when in close proximity with a loved one their tails wrapped together in a way as if you're holding hands. It's mostly meant for a spouse but it can be done in a platonic way between close family members... This is usually done in times of great stress, fear, or for comfort (or in the throes of passion between spouses)...

(The Villager/Illager bases purposely in this image do not have eyebrows or if you decide the species infuses with one or the other... But the species fusion is not limited to villager/illager mobs... You can infuse them with other mobs, I just only have this base form at the moment but you can create a fusion using these as slight schematics as to what features they would gain infused with the raptoid species)

[supercool-here]

To be honest, I have not given much though to the ysblf sequel (?) for next year, I'm just letting it in their hands, waiting for the result, hoping that the people in charge of creating this are really experts and taking a good direction. But also, there is so much to think about and consider that I rather not think at all. For example, if Fernando Gaitán hoped to tell people that women who don't fit the beauty standard have the right to dream as well, and he accomplished it, what is the purpose for this sequel? I believe with ECOMODA they just wanted to show Betty and Armando's life as a married couple, with the few issues here and there, the jealousy, the raising a daughter, etc. And it kinda flunked because that is only interesting for a bit, and only to those people who watched the soap and loved it. So what do they want with this sequel? They could have many, big goals with it. They totally have a wide audience, older adults who watched the soap two decades ago, and all the (possibly younger) people who have watched it over the years until now; and they totally have the characters to target both audiences, they have some of the older characters and they have Betty and Armando's daughter, who's a gen z (is that right?). What will they deliver? An attack on the ever-growing and ever-preying-on-the-vulnerable twisted world of fashion and beauty? And inside look on it? Women's, both older and younger, relationship with it? Marriage struggles? Existential crisis? Coming of age? Will they take the risk and venture into the world of LGBTQ and genders and trans and whatnot? What is Betty's journey going to be? And her daughter's? And Armando's? Because they better not believe we are going to be happy with the classic and boring "mom and daughter dynamic is going through a rough time and dad's just there" cause BITCH this soap DELIVERED, this soap SERVED, and I ain't lowering the bar. Where is Betty now, and where do they want her to get? Same for Armando and their daughter. You cannot expect two characters that went through so much to just be prefabricated cutouts in the background while their daughter goes through the standard coming-of-age struggle. I am not saying Betty and Armando can't lead normal, tranquille lives now, I'm all in for their peace and their happiness, but I'm also all in for a journey! Specially if that means it will broaden the experience for us; the more the characters are put through a process, the richer the show, and the more likely it is for someone in the audience to connect with the soap. If it is going to focus on Betty juggling her career and her relationship with her daughter and her husband, then the audience who can relate to Betty will connect, but the rest will either watch just out of curiosity or loyalty. I have no fear of saying that plotline isn't very interesting to me. But what if the daughter has a story too? And Armando? And they all have to grow in order to make things work? Idk I'm just ranting.

[homesickwings]

HERE COMES THE WINGED YAPPER !!

Gonna use the prompts <3

🪻 I've often found that the world feels almost the same ever since I awakened, but i feel more at peace with myself. I feel like I've been more mature since I've embraced my nature, but more than anything, I'm glad I finally have the answers to the questions I used to ask myself constantly during my childhood here on Earth.

🌘 When it comes to romantic and sexual attraction, I do feel both of them, and I dont think they're just a mortal social construct - it's just that humans really feel the need to put a label on anything, which isn't even a bad thing. Anyway, love (in all its forms) is the most beautiful connection between souls, and it's a crucial part of who i am.

As for gender, I think mine isn't related to my divinity. I'm genderless/agender, but I used to label myself as something else even when I'd already awakened, so my lack of gender isn't due to my angelhood. All these things are an important part of me and I care deeply for other queer folks.

☁️ Physically, I'd describe myself as an embodiment of light, but not like a sun that blinds you if you look directly at it. In that way, I like to say I also embody warmth. And I'd love to change the way I'm perceived, I'd just like people to view me as the ethereal being that I am, but not because I want them to worship me or anything. I want to be treated normally, while also knowing that others view me as what I really am.

🩶 what does being an angel mean to me... well, back Home, i was just a regular angel and I'm not really able to give a "fancy" answer to this. However I know for a fact I was created as an angel and I am grateful to my Creators. My soul is in a mortal body now and I know they sent me here for a specific purpose, though I'm still trying to figure it out. I'm sure it'll all fall into place on its own eventually.

🌬 I feel the weight of being human, but I don’t feel bound to it because I'm not human myself. I am indeed a watcher of life around me even though I need to adapt to the responsibilities that come with being in this body.

🔭 my spirituality is an important part of my identity, though it's nothing similar to the "common" definition of religion. I worship and pay respect to my Creators whenever and however I can.

🪐 I came to realize who I was over time, but it's a pretty cliché story. I've felt non-human since childhood.

As for extra bits of myself.. I'm an angel otherkin with autism, fibromyalgia, a non-verbal learning disability, anxiety, avoidant personality disorder, and many other things that are tiring to list - so yeah LOL it's definitely a unique experience

🎐 I don't know if I have a favorite thing about being human, and I know me being here has its purpose, but I guess I'd prefer a dimension where people would accept my real nature without mocking me for it. My senses here do sometimes feel dulled. It’s like trying to see through a fog; there’s so much more, but it’s not always easy to access.

🌙 Mortality is something I’ve come to accept, too - the thought of death scares me, but it's okay, because I know I'll finally be back Home once my time here is over. I obviously believe in the existence of all non-human creatures, and as for past lives/reincarnation/heaven or hell, I believe any of those are possible and that it simply depends on the individual. Does that make sense?

🤍 As for being treated like a deity, I don't desire that. I don’t want to be worshipped or served, mostly because I'm not a god. I'm just a little ball of light with wings /lh.

⭐️ All I can say about my existence is that I'm just... there. I just live, you know? My favorite thing is helping others, though I know I can't always do that, because things here are different. But other than that, I don't really crave anything in particular. I'm just a creature waiting to be reunited with one's friends and family. As for the otherkin community, I definitely feel safe around most nonhumans, and I know that they've changed over the years but I try to stay away from negativity.

I don't really have strong gut instincts.. however, yes, I am protected by an invisible force. Which, in reality, is simply the protection of my celestial folks above. I feel their reassuring presence constantly.

✨️ Angels, in my opinion, show themselves in all kinds of ways. In the quiet stillness of a moment, in the beauty of nature, in the unexpected kindness of a stranger, or the sudden shift of energy. We’re in the light of the sunrise, the crisp air of a mountain, the peace in a child's smile. Divinity is everywhere, if you know where to look.

🦋 As for being understood, I do know that others may not fully grasp my nature. There’s a longing to be seen, to be known for what I truly am. But I don’t let that fear stop me from being who I am, and sometimes, it doesn't really matter what they think of me because I know they can't change the real me.

It's a journey of re-discovery, and I'm glad to be part of it, which is why I don't hold any resentment towards my Creators and Protectors even though being on this planet is hard most of the time.

♡

HEY, Angel !!

Would you care as to describe your experience? I think not enough hear on just how varied and interesting we are, and it would be great to scroll through reblogs of a single post and be able to find those with similar experiences/feelings.

feel free to write whatever but if you would like some prompts:

Have you noticed the world seem more beautiful/peaceful since you’ve found yourself?

How do you feel about gender? Or having a name? Or attraction as a whole? Is it tied to more mortal instincts, or do you still have some essence of it?

How do you feel like you physically look? Do you have any preferences in form? Would you change the way you are perceived if you could - and into what?

How does your day get affected due to your mystical self?

Do you incorporate this sense of self in your hobbies / behaviours?

What does being an Angel or being of divine/holy nature mean to you? Do you consider yourself born here, a newly created angel, or one which has been around for a long time? Do you have any thoughts as to why you were assigned human at birth?

How much sense of “human”ness do you feel, and do you see yourself as equal to humans, something more, or like a watcher of life around you?

Do you feel like you have some higher purpose and reasoning of being here? A meaning of life, if you will call it that.

Do you have any religious connotations tied to your identity?

How did you come to realise who you were, and what signs did you exhibit prior to knowing this?

Do you have any other ‘uncommon’ bits of self apart from being a being of light, in a way? (Therian, otherkin, interests in specific things, neurodivergencies?) YOU DONT HAVE TO ANSWER THIS IF YOU DONT WANT TO!!

What’s your favourite thing about the bodily experience of being on earth? Is there any sensation you really like? (Taste, smell, touch, feeling, etc)

Would you prefer to be in another dimension? Do your senses feel dulled?

What’s your stance on mortality and topics tied to that? Do you believe in reincarnation/past lives/fate/destiny/divine intervention/guardian angels/ghosts/heaven & hell/god/meaning of life?

Would you enjoy if others treated you as some highly being and brought you offerings/treated you like a god/submit to you/worked for you?

What’s your stance on the community?

How do you interpret existence - how does it all seem to feel and what do you take away from it, like.. what do you live for? Do you have a sense of some ideal where the more you experience the higher you will achieve? Do you crave something out of life?

Do you have a ‘gut instinct/feeling’ and has it ever been scarily accurate to the point there could be no other possible explanation other than something holy?

Do you believe you are blessed and/or protected by some invisible force?

Where do you believe angels also show themselves? Are they in those stray rays of light of headlights, do they exist in the bite marks of a wounded animal’s form, is it within the ripples of the water, in the breath of the tree that takes in the wine, in the chill upon a high mountain - or is divinity everywhere?

Do you fear people don’t understand you well enough? Don’t understand us? Have you ever felt like doing something about it?

do you feel bored from these questions already - did you enjoy it- would you like more? Did I give you satisfaction? I find joy through writing, it makes me personally feel incredibly divine, and there’s a calling to know more about other individuals in this mystical and extensive world.. we need to stick together - as a whole. Love eachother. Treat yourselves well, too. Do more of what makes you feel fulfilled and happy. There’s so much complexities to life, but we just gotta handle it all with our own minds - but treat your heart and soul with so much kindness and care.. please- take care of yourself. Find whatever works for you and live forever, my friend. My eternal, immortal friend..

[kawaii-spider]

My Stance on Different Issues

If you want an idea of where I stand on different issues, give this post a read. I'm pinning it and will try to remember to edit it as I feel it's needed.

If you have any questions though, feel free to ask!

LGBT Issues

I'm transsexual and bisexual. Naturally I support gay rights and trans healthcare, but that doesn't mean I agree with every idea that comes out of LGBT spaces.

Transsexual vs Transgender

I prefer the term transsexual, because transgender has become a massive umbrella that really doesn't mean much. It can refer to someone like me who transitions from male to female or vice versa, but it can also refer to someone who doesn't do anything except change their pronouns. Worse still, I find "transgender" is often associated with certain ideological beliefs I disagree with... so I simply feel misrepresented when someone uses the word to describe me.

I also find the word transsexual a bit empowering, because my dysphoria is caused by my sex, I'm transitioning my sex, and the word itself seems to acknowledge this. I get that the word has a history, but I'm interested in reclaiming it.

Bisexual vs Pansexual

If someone only identifies as pansexual because they're attracted to trans people, I'd say that's transphobic. That doesn't mean you're a bad person, but bisexuality does include trans people and I'd say you've been led astray if you believe otherwise.

Apart from that, I try not to judge too much. Overall I don't see how it's different enough from being bisexual to deserve its own word, but you do you.

Misgendering & Neopronouns

Misgendering is bad because it teaches other people that someone is the wrong gender. It's especially frustrating for transsexual people to deal with, because we already struggle to be seen as the correct gender, which aggravates our dysphoria, and trying to teach people who we are can feel like an uphill battle when some dunderhead insists on misgendering us.

With that said, it should come as no surprise that I don't consider it misgendering to not use someone's neopronouns. If someone is going for androgyny, there's nothing objectively wrong with using they/them over their preferred xi/xir. Pronouns are meant to serve a practical purpose, while nicknames are meant to be fun.

Nonbinary Identities

If someone only considers themselves nonbinary because they don't relate to masculine or feminine gender norms, then I view the idea as regressive. Gender norms have nothing to do with being a man or a woman, so I don't believe people can just opt out by calling themselves nonbinary.

When it comes to nonbinary people who do transition, I try to keep an open mind. I do think opting out may be possible if you can pull off androgyny well enough.

Detransitioners

I support detransitioners so long as they aren't being transphobic. I think there's too much stigma around detransition and we should support people going through that process, because regardless of their reasoning, that process is more similar to transition than anything a cis person will ever go through.

Feminism

I'm a proud feminist and would say I'm personally affected by women's issues for the most part. While there are things I'm not affected by, it's probably safe to assume I support the common sense stuff like abortion rights.

Radical Feminism and TERFs

My relationship with radical feminism is a bit complicated since it's largely been taken over by TERFs. I do often agree with radfems when they shut up about trans people, but I'm just not interested in engaging with those communities while they're overrun by terminally online fauxminists who seem to hate trans women more than they care about cis women.

So while I could potentially be considered a radical feminist, I'm going to choose not to engage with radical feminism on tumblr.

Gender Abolition

I'm not interested in abolishing the categories of "man" and "woman," because I find them necessary in describing the unique challenges faced by people due to their sex. However, I do find gender roles oppressive and would like society to reach a point where people can do anything they want without having their behaviors judged as "masculine" or "feminine."

Sex Work

I think the ideal would be to reach a point where women don't feel the need to commodify their bodies. So while I'd say I'm supportive of sex workers, I'm against legalizing sex work.

Mental Health

I'm diagnosed with autism, ADHD, and an anxiety disorder. I also struggled a lot with dysphoria-induced depression as a teen and have seen mental health issues hurt people I care about, so I'd say this is something I take fairly seriously and care about.

Self-Diagnosis

I'm against self-diagnosis, because plenty of conditions can mimic the symptoms of another and even mental health professionals can't diagnose themselves due to bias. When it comes to treating a problem, it's important to find the right treatment... so I feel like people who diagnose themselves are doing themselves a disservice.

I think it's fine for someone to suspect having something and to make use of coping strategies they find helpful, but I don't think it's healthy to tell themselves they have a disorder without a diagnosis.

[agro-carnist]

I hope you're doing okay apart from..the events. Sorry this shit is still happening to you, seems like some people are just immature and unwilling to learn and want to make that everyone else's problem.. -_-

Just wanted to throw my hat in and say I also 100% support you because you're literally just. correct..about everything in your pinned. Also,, I can relate to having a paraphilia and intrusive thoughts, and also I create porn with that subject matter too, though mine is written. I'm ace+arospec actually, so the part where you said "But even porn can serve a purpose other than arousal" really really resonated with me. I don't write porn with these taboo kinks because it arouses me, I do it because I care about the characters and their relationships and backstories, and porn just happens to be a relatively quick, simple, and attention-grabbing way to put the characters in a vulnerable and emotionally visceral setting. Some (okay...a lot,) of my longest running OCs came from writing emotionally charged hardcore kinks lol. One of my favorite pairs, who are now the most tooth rottingly sweet and loving couple ever, started out as an idea to write a [2-3 very taboo kinks] scene, but I couldn't resist changing it to be less extreme cuz while I was writing and exploring their history and how they felt about each other, I realized I really loved their dynamic. And now,, I,,,might have..made myself cry with them a couple times.bc they're so.in love,, 🥺

I don't think they realize they're inadvertently invalidating every ace and aro that enjoys fictional kink. If fantasy is an indicator of a real desire then you have to assume every ace and aro that enjoys fiction of things they have no desire for is just lying. Things in fiction just exist in a different plane than reality. It's why a lot of people are attracted to characters of genders theyre not actually attracted to. Because how they exist in fiction just isn't a real representation. They've tricked themselves into believing that 2D sapient cats with religion are "exactly like real cats" etc etc

Anyways thank you for the support